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I'm Akari Yoshida, a graduate of NMV48.
When I was 14 years old, I went to an entertainment school.
But I had to drop out of high school because of my entrance exam.
I didn't do club activities and didn't have fun every day.
My mom and my mom's friends
I mean my friend's mom said that she could do an AKB Osaka version of Osaka
and at first I didn't want to do it at all.
I didn't want to be an idol, so I didn't pay much attention to it and refused it like, oh, come on.
My mom was pretty stubborn and said,
if you can't do it with a large number of groups,
the entertainment industry is a tough world and it's impossible.
She said that, and I was pissed off.
I thought I was going to lose,
and I sent it to the last day of the application process.
That's how it happened.
It's my adolescence, or the ten years from the age of fourteen to twenty-four.
I was able to send my normal high school life, but I also learned a lot of things that I couldn't learn in school life.
I was taught everything from scratch, even while living in the entertainment world.
I'm glad I was an idol rather than taking an office audition.
What was the hardest thing about being an idol?
I learned dancing, but it was hard because there were many songs.
There was a theater performance almost every day in the first year of first grade.
While doing the theater performance, I was thinking about the next performance.
And when the setlist of the theater performance changes, I had to do the next lesson while performing.
I had a lot of things in parallel.
Even if I released a new song, I had a lot of things to remember like the day of or the day before.
And I was worried about whether I would be popular or not.
I was always wondering if I would be selected or not.
I was wondering how much my passion would be even if I was selected.
I felt like I was being evaluated every day.
To be honest, it was painful.
But that's what made me feel frustrated and happy when I overcame it.
I think I've gotten really strong.
I don't think there's much to compete for in everyday life.
But I've been competing a lot.
Even now, I don't want to lose.
I think it's important for me to feel frustrated.
I think that part of my experience in NMBD has made me very stoic.
It's a good treasure.
But really, no matter which era you look back on, I've been around for 10 years, so I've experienced quite a few eras.
No matter which era you look back on, we all got along well.
We were always close when we had a lot of peers.
We were close even when we graduated and became juniors.
We were close when our seniors came from other groups as advisors.
I can't make a relationship like a member since I graduated and started working alone.
I think I was able to do it because it was this group, so I think that human relationship was insanely good.
Members who are worried about that too much are also...
I really think from the bottom of my heart that I didn't see it so much, and I'm glad that I could do anything freely.
I also started youtube while doing group activities and connected to personal work, but when I first uploaded makeup videos on youtube,
I thought we all had to work in the same way as a group
but when I said I wanted to do YouTube
I was allowed to do it freely
so I think I learned how to self-produce.
I think it's okay because I feel like I'm pretty free there compared to other groups.
What is it?
But about five years after joining NMB
I didn't get rewarded for my efforts
I wasn't good enough
no one was looking at me
I was just strong in spite of my weak spirit
and I thought that efforts were not rewarded.
I realized that hard work is not working hard like others.
I realized that you can't get results unless you work harder than others,
and I thought about it more and more when I saw the members who were ahead of me.
I didn't feel frustrated before joining NMB.
I didn't feel frustrated even if I didn't do well, or if I didn't do well in the sports festival or in the end.
I didn't think about anything, and I always thought it was okay not to be able to do it.
I always thought I couldn't do what I couldn't do, but I thought I couldn't be forgiven if I couldn't do it here.
I thought I had to do anything.
I think I was able to make an effort to be able to do even a little bit, not to escape.
I think it's because I've had a lot of competition with the members.
I've never thought about it even once since I graduated.
If you want to be an actress, you can take acting lessons.
But you'll know what you're good at and what you're not good at as you work.
But NMB isn't like, I'm good at it, so I'll let her do it.
Everyone gets the same chance.
Everyone can go to the theater performance.
If you can remember the choreography and sing, you can go out, right?
Everyone has a right to appear.
And you can learn how to express yourself in it.
If you go to the theater performance, you can be an MC.
And you can learn how to sing a song in an instant at work.
I also got a job as a gravure photographer.
I also worked for a clothing brand.
I was also a radio personality or a program MC.
When I realized it, I had experienced all genres in the entertainment world in NMB.
I've been called up for various jobs since I graduated.
I've done it all, so I've never felt like I was nervous for my first time.
I'm glad about it.
I wouldn't have been able to experience so much without idols and NMB.
There are many girls who want to be idols now
but if you want to be someone in the entertainment world
you can use the group's signboard
so I think your fame will rise faster than doing it alone.
I don't know what you want to do, but those who want to join the entertainment world are good at and not good at things.
I think it's a tough group, but you can experience it.
I think it's a good idea for idols to join the entertainment world as a step or a trigger or a school-like feeling.
Thank you for listening to me so far.
Maybe teenagers who are thinking of auditioning now may not know the NMB I am in.
I think it's the best group in any era, and if it weren't for NMB, I would never be here now.
For example, you want to change your life or do something hard,
I hope you will take the audition of NMB48.
I think life will change greatly.
We are waiting for many applications.
Find your dream. Make your dream come true.
NMB48 will bring you youth!